Monday, June 18, 2012

Had a wonderful visit on Saturday with Josh, Annie, Caroline, Jackson and Ryan.  I can hardly believe how big they have all gotten since we saw them at the end of September.  Even though we have done Skype it doesn't do size justice.

Took a few minutes to approach Ryan although he doesn't really have issues with strange people...LOL!  He was all grins  right away.

Annie is heartbroken over the loss of her beautiful little angel, Ethan. It is very important to her that he be remembered as a part of their family which is really understandable.  As I said to her, she carried him beneath her heart, felt his kicks, he listened to her voice and the voices of his brothers, sister and dad.  He is a part of their family and always will be. 

Many years ago I found a wonderful company that has the most perfect gifts for people battling cancer, loss, divorce and illness.  Healing Baskets is just a fabulous company and they had the perfect gift that I wanted to bring to Annie.  One was an ornament for their Christmas tree, a very delicate clay heart with the words, "Forever In Our Hearts."  The other is a delicate silver necklace with a "forget-me-not" flower and a small bead hanging.  It has a lovely little poem in the the box;

"Forget me not
My little one
You have left us too soon
Though my body can no longer hold you
I hold you forever in my heart
As precious and beautiful as this flower caught in time
A mother's love does not forget."

I hope I made it very clear to Annie that she doesn't have to wear it but that I wanted her to have it even if she were to keep it tucked away in Ethan's Box that contains so many little memories of him.  Annie's tears still flow freely and I was quite good at keeping my promise that I would maintain my strength when I was with her because I can't be a support to her if she feels she has to comfort me!  God propped me up and we had a wonderful visit!!

So much laughter... Ryan driving, well stepping on the pedal without steering.  The little car going along at a good clip.  So, here are three adults chatting and suddenly Caroline says.."He's going down!"  Well there goes Ryan down this little ravine...heading to some rocks.  Annie, the one who just had a c-section takes off after him and all I see is Annie on the ground laughing, me nearly wetting myself and Ryan totally oblivious to any danger he might have been in.

Ryan and Caroline

I feel so very blessed!!


  1. Oh, what sweet pictures!!! Your memory gift is so thoughtful and sweet.....
    Laughter and making sweet memories.... so wonderful!

  2. I'm so sorry for your loss... we just buried my little nephew on Thursday (he lived for about 6 hours), so I feel a little bit of the sorrow that you are experience right now too. Prayers to your family from mine!


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